Poetry = My Life

I've written poetry since I was 12. It's always been a way for me to express myself. I used to stutter when I was younger. I took speech lessons and I haven't stuttered since I was 10, but that emotion always impacted my ability to communicate with people. When I wrote poetry, I felt like I could tell the world anything - and no one would be able to laugh at how I talked or how I said things.

Writing has been very important to me ever since then. In the past few years, poetry and writing in general has taken on a special meaning to me. Firstly, my friend's little sister, Zoe, died of cancer last year. I read a poem at her funeral as her eulogy because that's what Zoe wanted. Secondly, on the 4th of July, my best friend Lee's father killed himself outside my home. I wrote poems to work through it. Because it was easier that way - I could work through my emotions of what was happening around me and realize that death happens and it hurts.

When I write, I feel closer to God. I feel the Holy Spirit around me. I feel God's hand on my shoulder. He's not telling me what to write. But He's telling me that it's okay to be scared, to be happy, to be hurt, to feel unloved, to feel true emotions. When I write poetry, everything in my life makes sense. It's all tied together through the poetry I have written. I keep journals and my journals are laced with my poems. It feels strange to go back and read these words - because you don't realize how much you are hurting until later, when you look back and see them.

Basically, everything in my life centers around a few, choice things:

  • Writing
  • God
  • Music
  • My family
  • Love

In no specific order. But let's just say that poetry, is pretty close to the top of that list.

;)

MishHell6 MishHell6
18-21, F
1 Response May 22, 2007

wow. Thats beautiful. Im going to college soon to be a pastor...maybe a youth pastor, i dont know what Gods calling me to be yet, and i've been terribly afraid...but that really made me feel at ease. Thanks for sharing that. :)