Ive written many.

only three times has it gotten to the stage where they have been read.



my stepdad came to the hospital, after the last time. id just been moved out of ICU. he read it to me. watching his face, seeing his tears, made me vow that no one would have to read one from me again.

Tesse Tesse
18-21, F
19 Responses Feb 13, 2009

I applaud your resolve and your compassion, LaTristessaDurera; taking responsibility for one's happiness could not be further from facility. I'm glad that this awful experience helped you to realize that you are profoundly loved. And I truly hope that you continue to discover compelling reasons to live.<br />
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(I'm also really impressed that you maintained such patience and composure during the startling discussion which has followed your posting.)

spelling your comments correctly also helps.....<br />
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I never implied that taking responsibility for at least the parts of your happiness you can control would make life easy. I never said it would stop you wanting to die. It just might bring five minutes of joy a day. <br />
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and surely by resolving not to try it again, I was taking responsibility for myself?

you forgot the resposibilty lecture <br />
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and moomouse spelling user names correctly gives you more credibility

my own advice...................<br />
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i dont remember giving much advice, just trying to give you some positivity, and acknowledging that although things are **** for you i appreciated that you stuck up for me, and i wanted you t try and see that people on ep like you......... or liked...... whatever..... im going to bed.

perhaps this story title might jog your memory <br />
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"thank god sombody said it" <br />
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moomouse i have a feeling a lot of things have never crossed your mind and despite my lack of language skills at least i don't blame people for things that are not their fault

ive had occasions where ive just flipped and taken handfuls of pills or cut real bad without thinking it through, those times i didnt write ones.<br />
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the times when id planned it for weeks, storing meds, setting a date when no one would find me, etc etc, those times i did.<br />
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i have, and i dont get it, would you please just explain or stop commenting?

think about it

what on earth are you on about? im not being antagonistic here, you have genuinely confused me....

next time take your own advice

then dont say anything at all.

trust me no you don't

what? if you have something to say, then say it, id be interested to hear.....

not exactly

Sounds like a pretty good decision TD!<br />

you just did by commenting!!!

i'm not even going there

thanks -hugs-

my best regards to you. Big Hugs*