The Answer

 My best mate and I went through a very difficult time together from June till November 2007.  He was fighting a drug addiction and my life was spiralling out of control, partly as a result of undiagnosed epilepsy and partly because of things that had happened long ago, which I couldn't shake.  We got through it by loving each other unconditionally.  It was an experience of total acceptance unlike any I've ever felt before.  I want to give details of it but it's just too personal.  There was nothing sexual at all about the relationship, we just loved each other dearly.  And still do.

I was having a bad time a little while ago and he emailed me the lyrics to Sarah McLaughlin's "The Answer":

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind

adjyo adjyo
31-35, F
2 Responses Feb 13, 2009

:-) thank you. he has also done a lot for me - we are both in much better places now. the experience of knowing him taught me that love CAN heal, if it really is offered without condition or expectation.

i think this story is really touching we all do wrong things at times an can get lost along the way it just takes a special person ilke yourself to help an guid us back onto the right path but also sticking around not just for the good times but when it starts to get tough an it always does, ithink alot of you for doing this an i bet your friend does to GOOD ON YOU !