Damaged Heart

I have a damaged heart. physically there are problems with my heart, and I have been to cardiologists and hate tests done

I get pain at times and veins will ache up into my neck, down my arm, had a few pulpitations too when stressed

but emotionally I have been wounded- there isn't much else to say, nothing much can repair it.

having feelings do not really help.  I've never been lucky at love and I don't think it will change much

I try my best to be good to others but romanticly I don't exist and I think I spent too much of my youth being too nice and tolerant of people

I don't have the same compassion in my heart now, cuz people didn't towards me.  I have a heart for the cats but.

 everytime I open my heart to love i get hurt, so I just shut down...

czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
36-40, F
Feb 13, 2010