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Play Dead By Bjork

The past couple of days I've spent with a guy who isn't sure how far he wants to take his feelings for me. One second he wants a relationship and the next he wants to stay single. I'm the type of person who doesn't like to show weakness or vulnerability so I pretend it doesn't bother me. I play dead. The dead don't hurt or care that someone is pulling on their heart strings.



"darling stop confusing me
with your wishful thinking
hopeful embraces
don't you understand?
i have to go through this
i belong to here where
no-one cares and no-one loves
no light no air to live in
a place called hate
the city of fear

i play dead
it stops the hurting
i play dead
and hurting stops

it's sometimes just like sleeping
curling up inside my private tortures
i nestle into pain
hug suffering
caress every ache

i play dead
it stops the hurting"
Dulcette Dulcette 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 22, 2011

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Sounds like the 'relationship' is actually a little early and new to be committing to much. <br />
However, if and/or when, he feels something, it's not his choice to have or not have that feeling. <br />
Granted, many know how to hide them, and some can just stuff them down so far, that on the surface they can't acknowledge to feeling them. But you 'feel' what you feel, if only for a split second.<br />
But for healthy folks who can feel and acknowledge, if only to themselves, the only choice really is to decide what to do with them.<br />
And ya know, vulnerability is what intimacy is all about. It affirms to the other person a subtle statement of "I trust you". However, in all cases, be careful about who you show that to, and really take the time to develop some trust first.<br />
But good luck with your guy I hope it works out for the both of you.