Deftones - Ghosts

BI go through the extremes of being overly optimistic and overly pessimistic at the whim of the eons it seems. But whenever something good happens to me it is short lived and reality sets in. The notion that I deserve good things in my life keeps getting refuted by experience. I maintain a positive attitude throughout, or at least I try to, and it doesn't help. The problems persist. Some are the same as before. Others are spawn of the first. Either way, today this song is hitting me especially hard as the things that were going right in my life have been extracted once again.

When the room is quiet
The daylight almost gone It seems there's something
I should know

Well, I ought to leave
But the rain it never stops
And I've no particular place to go

Just when I think I'm winning
When I've broken every door
The ghosts of my life
Blow wilder than before

Just when I thought I could not be stopped
When my chance came to be king
The ghosts of my life Blew wilder than the wind

Well, I'm feeling nervous
Now I find myself alone
The simple life's no longer there
Once I was so sure
Now the doubt inside my mind
Comes and goes, but leads nowhere

Just when I thought I was winning
When I've broken every door
The ghosts of my life
Blow harder than before

Just when I thought I could not be stopped
When my chance came to be king
The ghosts of my life
Blow wilder than the wind