I Don't Know...

Geez, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me lately. Why the hell am I getting so emotional over people? Why the **** do I care so much, why should I care? History will only repeat itself. Why am I setting myself up for failure? How can I know what I'm doing, know how much I will hurt myself and still do it? Why can't I stop all these thoughts, all these questions like clouds gathering before a storm? Why can't I shut my mind off. Why can't I sleep?

Why do I insist on ruining myself?