I mess things up a lot.
I just wish that sometimes, I could do something right. Anything.
I swear, everything I do, I mess up.
I'm sick of it, sick of myself.
So you know what it feels like to cry yourself to sleep every night?
Do you know what it feels like to have your parents tell you every single day that they want to hit you?
I'm so close to relapsing.
I hate living here.
I'm not allowed to move out.
I hate it all.
One day , i will be strong enough.
Wanna cry, wanna die........
I was reading this post that said:
If you have feelings, guilt, or remorse, you are not a sociopath.
This is the first time that I actually ended up not a sociopath.
it is not true that people stop pursing dreams because they grow old, they grow old because they stop pursing dreams.
Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Hey I'm here for anyone they needs help! Just shoot me a message :) y'all are all wanted!! Just need to believe thwt
So earlier today I posted a story about a cat or dog (read if you want) and was reminded of some good memories.
One day my father was teaching me to drive on these back roads and a...
Surrounded by people, but somehow still always alone, yet never alone enough to just drop the walls and let the real me out long enough to relax.
I'm out of words, I can't even describe it anymore.
It feels like nothing. I feel nothing. I am nothing.
And I accept that.
I feel like such a hypocrite, I always tell people who say their suicidal not to do it and that things will get better yet inside all I can think about is dying
I was working my way to becoming a whole person instead of a broken mess. I was fixing my life. Now I just feel like I'd deceived myself into thinking things were starting to be...
Cry in the shower that way no one sees your tears.....
I have and did for two weeks i spent a week off here and no one cared and I'm about to disappear for years....I tired of these feelings I keep having =(
I've been at this for years. I should be used to it by now. Why is it still so terrifying when I realize that this round could last far too long?